college; 01.03

today was interesting.
my first free was second lesson and I spent it in the canteen with hannah, lucy and some guy called david, one of lucy's friends. matt was on the other side with some of his friends. they were keeping their presence low-key. they kept looking over to me and then erupting into sly whispers of conversation. bunch of fucking cunts. I could have actually cried there and then.* but I held myself together, *manned up* as it were. For lunch no one was really about so I skinned up in the toilets and smoked a joint in St Andrews. went to double photography relatively high and photoshopped some of my pictures, which probably look awful after doing them post-spliff. during the break I saw rachel and still being a bit wobbly I made such a fool out of myself, stumbling over my words like I was suffering from a stammer. killllerrrr :( so I came home and chilled out to some hendrix with another joint. I'm about to skin up another, have some msn chatticles and slide into bed.

I really want a nikon d40, for my own, fed up of using the college's

* no one knows about me and matt, but I'm guessing soon enough it will all become apparant. I'm considering talking to him about it, but I really don't know if the cunt is actually worth my time.