valentines day

I think today is really special. a lot of single people come out with the same shit *valentines day is a load of shit* etc. but tbh I think it's kindve pathetic. I've been single for a v.long time and I'm not complaining. I think it's really nice that people can just get together and show eachother their love, and I don't see any use of bitching about it. I say the word love, because that's what it's about.
elaborating
two boys sent me valentines cards today, one secret, the other not. rejection isn't something I like doing, but I'm not going to spend the day of love doing a one night stand with some boy I barely know.
it's scary thinking about it though. I don't like one night stands, but a relationship scares me.
I know it was a while ago now, but when me and james hurst were together I was so happy, but when we split up I'm not too sure I can handle that again. he went off with another girl a month later and I was so depressed I've never felt so down. is that what I have to look forward to in my next relationship?(if I ever have one)
i don't know.

but just for now, just for valentines, I'm happy enough watching everyone else happy together.